The person who helped you find peace

Peace. It’s just a simple word; yet the hardest thing to find. You think it’s simple to gain peace, just sit quietly and you’ve done it. But unfortunately it doesn’t go that way. Maybe you will find quietness. You might even think you have found peace, but you will soon realize that you are wrong. Very wrong. Because there is no sound around you but there is chaos in your mind, in your heart…and it’s not easy to escape it. And you realize you have no peace at all. It takes more than absence of noise to find it. And the search for it begins: in every small thing. It might be music or books or even sports. Yes, sports, because peace is not absence of noise or sound. Peace is being at complete ease with yourself. Peace is absence of disturbance. Peace is tranquility. But why is it hard to find?

Many a times we are disappointed for we do not find peace in the things we hoped for. That’s because you can’t be yourself at home or work or with your friends. They have expectations from you and you feel the unnecessary obligation to fulfill all the expectations. Your family expects you to score well, get a good grade, settle down etc. Friends expect you to always be there for them. Some even turn out to be so selfish that they actually exploit you as if it is their right. And at work, well of course they have expectations from you. They are looking for profits; not sentiments. You get crushed under the wheel of expectations. Too dramatic? I think not. For at one point in time we all go through it. Some know it; some don’t. You feel helpless. Even useless at times, like you don’t matter to anyone. Like no one cares. And peace? You have long forgotten about it. You conclude that there is no such thing as peace.

But then comes a ray of hope – the silver lining in your black life. It may be a person, an incident, a good book or even an inspiring movie. You accept that there is a different way of looking at things. You believe that perspective can change your life. And it’s all because of that one person. He changes your life even faster than you can blink your eyes. Even before you know it your life has already taken a good turn. You don’t even realize it but you find peace. Peace doesn’t come to you. You have to find it. You have to accept things as they are. No complaints, no demands. Only gratification. And you find peace; in the smallest of things. Where you have actually been looking all your life – in music, in books, in your passion, in your hobbies. You learn how to channel you stress, how to maintain the pressures on you.

With him you can never have quietness. He will always do something or say something. But you will still be happy. Happier than ever before. And no. He's not you knight in shining armor. He's a friend. And at that moment there's no one who can take his place. You find pleasure even in noise. You find tranquility even in crowd and chaos. You find Peace.

And it’s all because of one person. Just one. The funniest part is – he doesn’t even know he made such a great impact. He is oblivious to it all. You start believing again because of him. But he doesn’t know it. And he never will; you will never tell him. Because you don’t want seem too sentimental or desperate or even fake. So you decide to keep the secret with you. And that secret will be buried with you.

But he helped you find the meaning of life and you will forever be grateful to him. Maybe forever without him knowing. At times you even think of telling him, but then you back off because of the fear of losing whatever friendship you have with him. And you are back to the point where you contemplate about telling him. You decide to tell him one day but also decide that today is not the day.